currently in my work I am playing
playing with mylittlepony
knitting and felting purses
turning them into remote control cars

making steel dresses
photoshoping myself into dresses
questioning myself
my role in the making process
my role as a man
my role as a gay man
since I’m gay
is it okay for me to play
play with mylittlepony
why can’t straight men play
play with mylittlepony
there was a time
as a young child
I used to play
play with my sister’s mylittleponies
she had the pony play palace
we would play
play for hours
I loved it
but felt guilty
why should I feel guilty
why should I feel wrong for playing
boys toys
girls toys
why the labels
why does it matter
is the fear to be queer
why should I feel ashamed
I’m not hurting anyone
I’m just playing
playing with mylittlepony